ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY
do you know there's so much things i want to tell you already ? i am fucking desperate for you now. i really miss you so freaking much. i want you back so badly. yes its my fault. what you have done for me to show that you care, yes i know about it. but thought about how i am feeling. i am not something that you can throw around. how upsetting it can be when i know that. i dont deny that yes, you care, alot. but the way.. its just wrong. i need it directly from you insted of through somebody. i want to talk to you so badly, but, the minute i look at you. its enough for me to handle. the whole torturous cycle happens again. how damn tiring it is do you even know. can never believe that you would even say that teenage relationships wont last. dont break my heart anymore would you? its enough already. what you have said, its in my heart already. just stop it. dont associate you life with me anymore. dont. just dont. i had enough already. dont think that i am not upset cause i didnt make a big wooohaaa about it or because i didnt cry in school like what i used to. this time the hurt is so great. i wonder why it is also. but maybe it came too sudden. i took you for granted, its my fault. i caused this relationship to fail. but the retribution i am getting is already more and enough. my eoys are like.. didnt even study a single shit. aint that just awesome. when you start to lose the love of your life, you just have to go through this period of hibernation. like you're practically in your own world. and yes that is what i am going through now. grauduation day.. going to see you and that's like sad ! :/ you're leaving school in another one week. enjoy your last week of school life and, i know you will do damn darn good for your o levels. take care, my love.
¶ 10:10 PM 
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