HUNDRED EIGHTY FOUR cause in the end, the outcome was the same. in the first palce, i should be the one to walk away. why didnt i walk away? its causing so much misery in me now. the feeling of letting someone so important walk away from my life. cause everything is different now, i hugged you, yet you didnt do it back. you stood there. thought about how i would feel? cause now, in my head, all i can think is about what you did that day, to me. how you actually lied directly to me. how much more can you actually do? you used to do o many things, yet now everything is different. this is the way it goes isnt it? nothing is meant to last. i had enough of crying you know? everytime i think somebody is different, apparently they are not. they are all the same. guys are guys, they are all the same. yes, im giving up. every night i cry, but for what? im not as strong as i used to already. why dont you understand? but i understand that she needs you more than me. she wants you more than me. you want her too, thats why when i hugged you, you didnt do it back. cause you wanted it to be her. i never should have even held you. i should just let you go when i had the chance to. then tell me why, why you said all those words, to bring me back to you. for telling me that you loved me, and you didnt want me to be upset? tell me would you? whats wrong!? i can forgive you after what you have done with her. but what i want is for you to tell me that you love me. i cant forget everything, about the entire incident, cause what i want is for you to be back. for us to be like how we used to. please, will you? if it is meant to be, it will wont it? but some how or rather, nothing is meant to be. i seem to be losing everyone all over again. unless its you, i will go for no more untill o level is over. :D  ¶ 10:05 PM